Days blend to weeks and weeks to years. We often find ourselves feeling spent and done with. I feel that way lately, stressed about school, about work, and about the finalizing of my divorce. Not to mention bills and such. Then I look at life, look at those around me, the strangers I see pass me by. They too are living life. This stressful world we live in is wonderful, difficult, and absurd all at the same time.
The things that happen to us, part of me believes that there is a reason for everything, but the other side of that coin is that there must be some level of chaos, of unpredictability. I get lost in it all, but I also think that is the point of life as well. People talk of thriving, of never having a care in the world. I am content right now to keep my head afloat, and in a few weeks or months I will be sailing again on the choppy and wonderfully unpredictable sea of life.
One last thing… something my father once told me. There are always choices. You can do anything you want to. You just need to do it. People travel the world on less money than I have, they build wonders and write of their adventures. There are very few real excuses to be made. Me? I will take life one day at a time, but with my eye on my goals. I never want to lose sight of my dreams entirely. So next time the waves cover my head, I will remember that the surface is above me, all I need to do is swim back up to it. Sometimes easier said than done, but that is indeed life.