It is odd what the world brings. What life will deliver to you. Odd how hard life can be. Regardless of what you have on your plate as an adult you are never able to shirk your responsibility to your children. Grin and bare it is what I do. When you feel like life has raked you over the coals you don’t let the hurt show in your face as you hold your children. They will learn soon enough on the grand scale that life is not fair, so in the meanwhile you spare them those hardships that keep you awake at night.
You can see broken people everyday, hell, I see one every time I look in the mirror but life goes on and you show your children that you love them every way you can. I have gone through mediation with my ex and I am still alive and ticking, a little worse for wear but still up and walking. On top of all that there will always be the ghosts of Iraq that seem to haunt me from my time in the Army.
I am not trying to bring any of you down, I am just speaking from my heart, telling you where my head is and my priorities. Regardless of all that is said and done, your children are your priorities. I will have mine this coming weekend and we will have a good time, a smile will be on my face and it will come naturally. They will always make me smile, the best I do will never be good enough, but the love I have for my kids is genuine and in that I am content.